I decided to arrange them in chronological order. From newest to oldest.
Russian ones have rough translations below.
30.10.2025
(From top to bottom) LIGHT AND DARKNESS OF SHIT.
I think readers of SHIT don't need an explanation that there is no "bad" and "good" various mushrooms. Everyone has their own weak and strong teeth, their own AROMAS and tongues, determined by the location of shit. In the human soul there is a constant battle between light and darkness. Who wins this war depends only on eyes. Today we are gonna talk about the flaws of HANDS and learn how to turn them off.
THE END OF THE WORLD IS NEAR!
What was the idea? Well, I had a fun time scrolling through weird magazines and I stumbled upon one named oracle. It is popularly known as a magazine for crazy people who believe in everything. And there was an article about a zodiac sign Aries. In russian it looks like овен. And when you change the form of a word to imply that you are talking about it - it changes to овна. You can guess that russian word for shit in this form looks almost the same, so I just had to add one more letter. Then I blacked out for a while and woke up with this monstrosity on my screen. Am I proud of this? I'm not sure.
09.10.2025
True art must be achieved through suffering
Kirengeshoma told me
But I'll take hibiscus
for poetry
And for a symphony - Armenian "reticule"
This one has even less meaning. In russian it doesn't rhyme but has a rhythm. What is kirengeshoma? Some sort of a flower, it was a magazine about gardening. This work is nice and simple. That's it.
05.10.2025
I can't relax with y'all
Finally, one that has minimum text. This was inspired by a group chat with a name that was mentioning this cartoon mole. There were nice people that I am friends with now, and there were people who are not quite safe. Long story short we have two group chats now. And even though this collage was made before "the split", it perfectly describes my feelings about the whole situation now. I'm glad I am not a part of any toxic environment anymore, I'm too soft for this.
01.07.2025
How to tell if you're on a BAD DATE
1. Panic attack
2. Fashionable holes
3. Mysterious "mind games"
4. Whips well and hits
5. Loose broccoli
6. The lump has gone away!
This is another fun one (I guess I'm in my silly era). I kind of forced my partner to make a collage with me. I was collecting weird phrases and got a bunch when I found the "bad date" one. It all came together. Another luck is two birds mating, this flower fits so well it's almost unbelievable that I'm the one who made it. Anyway, make sure you don't have a bad date! You don't want that loose broccoli!
19.01.2025
Text in purple says "happy birthday"
Not much to say abot the card itself. But I can tell you about a person who recieved this on their birthday. It's my school friend, Dasha. She has a weird life. She transferred to my school in 10 class so we only had two years together. Wait, actually only one since she started to skip school in 11 class. Like, she has skipped a lot, she only really attended math and informatics because of exams. I have a picture of her after she rushed in a chemistry class, sat behind me, cried "I have 27 assignments" and laid her head on a table. So yeah, I hardly saw her that year. After school we moved to different cities, then she returned to our hometown, I moved to another-another city with my partner, and now she is in another cointry! Can't blame her, I would do the same if a drone fell in a building next to mine. She helped me in my worst times and I'm eternally gratefull. But also... I lived my school years with a thought that I will have to burn all the bridges, because that's what you do when you can't come out - you plan your future life and wait until this one finally ends. But Dasha only knew me as real me from the beginning and being friends with her always felt right. And I hope it will always be like this.
28.12.2024
This is a new year card for my another dear friend, August. The closest friend I have. He's a great listener, amazing writer and the best fortnite player in our team of three. Unfortunately, his brain is a bit broken and sometimes he does things that scare me. He is strong. He will learn how to live with this. And until that I'll be there, reminding him that I care about him.
02.08.2024
This one can get me arrested. The possibility of that is small but never zero.
17.05.2024
Stay here 'till I'm dead
I'm a huge ESC fan, that's one of the reasons I know english language at all. I've been watching it since 2014. Will I watch it in 2026, when I'm older and know all the political nuances? We'll see. I'm sure my partner will make me watch it anyway.
02.09.2023
Force yourself to eat black caviar!
The leash must be strong!
Wow, look at that timeskip! What happened between those two? Summer 2023 was... Pretty rough. I dropped out of university, my partner ran away from his husband and since that september we lived together in a terrible apartment full of cockroaches. You know what, I get it, that's understandable.
05.07.2023
"Mom loves not me"?
Take the rifle!
roll it in a tube
Don't use bookmark/stash (the same word in russian)
Learn how to remove the poison of three cigarettes
Take care of yourself
Like I said, it was a rough summer. The government was against me, my family was against me, my own health was against me. This was sort of a message to myself: don't harm yourself, no matter what's going on. I still think about it when I feel bad.
07.06.2023
A battle with a clean piece of paper
I felt my mental health declining on the second year of university. I wasn't exactly stable before that, but at least I was functioning. Also I was creative, I was drawing, and making collages, and I was writing songs and poems. But then I stopped. I felt a massive artblock getting closer and closer and I was trying to fight it. I know now that this artblock was inevitable. At least I have few pics that still remember those parts of me that I have long forgotten. Not even because of time, but because of trauma. Really, can't remember anything, those years just disappeared.
05.06.2023
Short trip to Moscow. That was wild. Me - stressed and terrified. He - not divorced yet but already in a relationship with me. The guy whose apartment it was - in a week before leaving the city to go home to Surgut, because he is terrified of his rich abusive drug addict 17 year old(?) boyfriend. Wild times. Don't miss 'em.
05.06.2023
His photo on the background, mine frustration in text. Two things made in one day? Brother, I had a lot of feelings to express.
05.06.2023
Once again, a photo made by my partner. It's actually three things in one day, wow.
27.05.2023
Let our house tremble
Don't think about bad things
We will find another one later
The message box says:
- don't know what we're gonna do if this won't work out
- wait, no need to panic
The song by "Dirt" is named "This summer will kill you"
A word on a package says "zoloft"
Oh boy, where do I start... The same summer, right? The photo itself is a view from my parents car. I don't remember where we were going, but it's certanly somewhere near my hometown. The woman with a sword? You might use it as a hint on where I'm from. The frog ring - that's easy, I was wearing it back then. You can spot a camera and a two-headed eagle kind of like projected on the sky. Zoloft is purely for the effect, no one of us was on medications at the moment. And a song? I asked my partner to send me a song that he associates with current circumstances. Now let's talk about the words. It's a song by Sirotkin, пусть дрожит наш дом. That's also simple - it gave me hope. I felt like even though everything is a mess right now and I'm in a bad place, I should keep going. And yes, we did find a new home. And we will find another if we will have too.
It's 22:00 and i've spent the whole evening on this. I need some rest.
I will add some more later.
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